Noo! at Huss and I wont be there. I take mine next summer. -sigh- I don't want to have a HS reunion and go to Ashbrook bleh. Stupid.

Yayay band!Details girl! With who and all.

Aww. hope you feeling better. I kinda get that way sometimes. I just hate everyone and all. I wouldn't talk at school and glare at everyone and hate them for having friends. I even hate it when I see kids my age laughing. because i'm not..and don;t have a reason to.
was yours pretty much the same things as before?

Talk to me I'm open anytime. haha

You know I actually could probably take drivers ed wherever I want to, and I would wait to take it if I could take it with you. How awsome would that be. Oooh dangerous! I can understand not wanting to go to a reunion, but you wouldn't have to..screw them all lol. Or take me with you and we can slap them all down.

Ok lol lets see the people in it are me obviously on guitar and these two very much awsome guys named Jonah (19) and Ethan (18). They want Janelle to be on keyboard but I don't want her to be in it the band should be finally my own thing I don't want her to take over that too. Plus I can do keyboard, I write music mostly on the piano anyways well the better stuff I just ever write it down lol. Ethan says he will be the one writing and all but blah lol. We haven't really done anything yet though like not ever played all together, we don't all get together a lot anyways. So thats pretty much all lol not exciting yet (we have no name lol)

Thanks for the happy wishes, they really do mean a lot, some light in a dark place. Yeah I understand what you mean, why should they be able to be happy while you are just sitting there feeling awful, makes you hate their guts. Does that mean that there is no one there that will make you laugh I'll slap the shittake mushrooms out of those brats. You may not have a reason to laugh but you deserve the most to laugh out of everyone. Well the way mine is, is a little different now. Its much worse with worse symptoms and feelings. I don't know if you have ever felt this way but the thought of suicide runs through my mind almost every second of everyday, even when I don't feel too depressed, its almost constant, I feel worthless, guilty, ugly, helpless, alone all that mess. I feel like every organ is going to expload in my body. I won't go into anymore lol I don't want to depress you with my stupid depression.
Lol but you know if you ever feel down or anything you can always call me or text me, I honestly don't mind at all and I have like unlimited everything. I'll try to give you some reasons to laugh. It sucks having to go through crap alone so I am always here also. Wow this was long and now everyone can read this lol after you read this I will brobably block it lol. Anywho peace out.

Hehe yesh awesome I'd wreck haha.
-slaps them all- JENNARRRRAWRARWAR!!!

Ooh so cool! Band is yours only! No Janelle hehe.
Tell them the name you liked: Falling Jane. It's so unique and
I love it. Suites the band.

Well, sometimes I kinda laugh at the other kids in art class. I do have
a few acquaintances and maybe friends. I sit with two girls at lunch. But
no one like our group to stick with. Hahaha I loled at the shittake mushrooms.
I would give so much to look to my right and just giggle with you. Heheh D
Oh don't feel that way, ever. You are such an inspiration and have been through so much.
You really are special to me (in a strong friendship way), like that poem about you being a flower and all.
You say I deserve to laugh, but I think you do too. We both have reasons NOT to laugh, but we should anyway.
We need to laugh for the heck of, to feel it deep from within and make it work our abs (haha) to the point where we
have tears streaming down our cheeks. We need to look at every day as a blessing and not a way to torture us. We need
to live life fully, with all its ups and downs. And we have a brand new year to do so.

Although I got angry today at Wendys lol. These little kids were staring at me (my hair i think), but then i heard them talking saying "ooh she looking over here" and all. And there was this black guy that used to bother me at school everyday almost (the kids were black too) so that just made me even madder. (the guy doesnt bother me anymore btw.) Anyway, we left and i slung the door and kinda hit my dad (his arms full!) and he got a lil mad at me too. :/ Oops,

You said your phone was messed up before. Is your number still the same one you gave me before you left or a different one?
Yayay laughing time.